while he doesn’t how to find this blog, he does lurk anonymously on my nsfw secret identity tumblr. i’m never sure if he follows everyday or some days but he definitely mentions specific tumbles. being in a long distance relationship is difficult to be sure, though when it is not a “secret” one can call, text or generally reach out to one another whenever they want. not so when it is an affair. ever. but especially during non-work hours or events. weekends, evenings after 5:30, holidays etc. ironically, as much as i long to see him, enjoy a meal with him and be able to reach out and touch his beard-the cadence of long distance works for our mutually, over-scheduled lives. I’ve posted before about his ability to compartmentalize and hyper focus with no communication for days and even weeks at a time was problematic for me. And how my ability to blend and my need for connection on a daily basis made him nervous and our first six months was a lesson in pushing through communication and giving one another space to find a way to meet in the proverbial middle. and what a long way we’ve come…
as i was restricted to limited mobility due to my surgery, i spent a good part of new years eve whiling away on line and napping. i reblogged this picture on tumblr:
i knew he was out with his bride and some friends at their local watering hole and with our time difference, the conversation i had with him earlier in the morning would be the last until we returned to work on 1/2. instead, at 10:12pm (pdt) new year’s eve i received this email…
I Wish….
is me is really me 
I have been reading through your blogs and so much about what you said resonates. I think our situations are very similar except I’m not married. But I too am with a married man and we are separated by many miles. Our visits are not very often. Each issue provides a different set of challenges. Him being married, and the distance. He too is a very gentle man. The way you describe your lover reminds me of the moments and conversations between my lover and myself. He is always very gentle with his words, his thoughts and actions. I sometimes think being single makes it harder to be with him, because I have so much alone time and can be lonely at times. However, I was married at one time, and that loneliness was heartbreaking as well. Anyways, wanted to stop by and say thanks for sharing your stories, I’ve enjoyed reading them 🙂
XOX! That was so sweet! 🙂
Loverman called me at 9:30 on New Year’s Eve when he got into work safe. I asked him to call me when he was off in the morning… When he called me New Year’s Day, he asked me why I wanted him to call me again. I told him it was because I wanted his voice to be the last one I heard in 2013 and the first one I heard in 2014 😉
Happy New Year!
aww I love it! Happy New Year my friend!